I am alive....somehow

Just letting you all know, No I'm not dead. I am alive and kicking, however small it may be. I am stressed, school is stressful, work doesn't help school's stress, I'm sick, Matt's sick, but somehow (amazingly enough) I'm still alive. :) I think that says something. I may not be able to keep up with everything going on around me, but I can survive!

Matt has been so sweet and helpful these past few weeks. My siblings have all moved out to North Carolina and I am in Utah finishing up school. I think it's great that they're starting over and building a great life for themselves, but I miss them all!!! On top of everything else going on though, it has really been almost too much for my emotions to handle. (For any siblings reading this, don't worry I'm ok, just venting my frustrations :P). Anyway, I'm adjusting, slowly trying to get used to the idea of being the only one left in Utah. Gratefully, I have Matt's family as well who are very good to me and have always been great friends.

I am also excited to go to California for Christmas and spend time with Mom and Grandma and Granddad! Included in those feelings are being grateful for this semester to be done already!! I cannot wait for a break! I need a break! I took way too much on this semester and I'm already rethinking my plans for taking even more classes next semester. What was I thinking!!!??? What would it really matter if it took me an extra semester to graduate? Nothing really! It would be ok. I would be able to space out my classes and learn more (in a less stressful environment) in the long run! That sounds great to me! I want my money's worth! ;)

Anyway, I just wanted to post something since I haven't in a very long time. It has been mostly stress related and not having the time to sit down and write. Don't worry too much about me! I am taking things one at a time and I will eventually get to where I want to be! In perspective, I would rather enjoy what I'm learning rather than cram and get nothing out of it. Gotta go now. Gonna catch up on homework and life! Eventually, I'll make time to go to the gym. Pssshh.. We'll see! I love you guys!