Don't Judge Me, Blog...

Hello old friend that is the blog of Me....it's been a while. I've been very contemplative lately, but haven't shared my thoughts with you. I apologize, but you and I know that it will happen again at some point. I think and think and think and then I forget what I was thinking about and forget to blog about what I forgot I was thinking about. (I really don't think I could type that again if I tried...Oh, the brilliant moments of Me) It's a horrible conundrum.

I have to say I've been very proud of myself recently. I've been doing the little daily things that I've been needing to do for a long time. Studying (not just reading) my scriptures and praying every night (not just falling asleep while praying). Gosh...I sound like a freakin heathen.. Don't judge me, blog..I have all power over you.

I've also had the urge to blow bubbles til my heart's content the last few days. I have been ignoring this craving and replaced it with reading a large book that I've been trying to finish for months now. I won't divulge which book, because there may be some to reprimand me for it. I kinda thought scriptures should take priority. Go ahead, call me crazy if you must..

I've been very content, but thinking about being content has made me wonder if I'm not trying hard enough. I've experienced the "comfort zone" crap that killed parts of me for a while. I don't want to experience the painful "bring myself back to life" phase again. Being numb is torturous. (I was gonna make a "don't do [numb] drugs comment, but I couldn't make it work in my head..oh well..)

Speaking of drugs...I was just told a teacher and dear friend of mine accidentally OD'd on one of his arthritis meds recently. He's ok and not quite himself yet, but he has to wait for the medicine to leave his system. How sad! Oh, dear favorite Larry...please get better soon!

Not quite a happy note to end on...blast!

I'll end with a scripture. Jacob 4:7 - We will never have a trial we haven't been given the talents and power to endure and conquer. There! Now that's happy! :)