To Limbo Or Not To Limbo?

There have been many things on my mind lately. Starting over can be depressing or it can be exciting. I've had a mix of both at once and it's very tiring. There has been a lot of pressure on me to find a job and I have been looking everywhere. No luck yet, but I know the Lord will bless me in my efforts. The last blessing before I left Utah made sure of that. I won't list the blessings. Ask if you want to know.

Starting over with nothing... I don't even know where to begin. I find most of my time is spent in front of the computer job searching or talking to dear friends. My car is making strange noises and I'm not sure I should be driving it all over the place, so that keeps me at home. It's just a strange kind of limbo to be in. I guess I feel stuck.

I love being around my family and I've been able to spend time with each niece and nephew that I hadn't before. I am so grateful to be in North Carolina, but I can't help wonder if there isn't something more waiting for me. Some next step I want/need to take and I don't know where to put my feet.

I am sure there are some that wonder when I will come across that special person I can start a family with and I wonder the same thing. Is it someone I already know or is he hiding? Haha..wouldn't surprise me..I have been told I'm intimidating.

But...the Lord promised if I prepare myself He'd prepare him so I haven't been worrying about it. I suppose that could be the next step and I may just be stuck in limbo until then, but I'd rather not think of it that way. I'd rather believe I can fill that time with worthy activities and people and forget about limbo altogether.


On a lighter note; Pretzel M&Ms...sent from Heaven, I tell you!!